Tuesday, December 26, 2006 . 11:30 AM

went to town yesterday with baby... reached town quite late... ard 4?? and went straight to far east and shopping... i bought a limited edition stussy world tour tee from BAPE STORE and a polo shirt from REVOLTAGE! lols!! baby bought a comfy white cardigan from REVOLTAGE too... hmmm there the shirt quite nice but kinda expensive... then at around 7 we went to pacific plaza for STUSSY!!! yea... baby bought her first stussy t-shirt.... a good start! ahahaha... very nice as you can see on the pictures.... and i bought a hoodie !

then went to coffee beans at wheelocks place to have caesar salad... the size was huge... but just nice for 2... =) we love the cheese and the croutons ! yummyyyy~~~

had a wonderful christmas with baby.... we took some fotos on the way back.... enjoy em'*

Sunday, December 24, 2006 . 3:57 AM

yay christmas is coming soon....

last few days i made baby angry.... =(

headache now where to find good cutting plain shirts... gonna start everything on monday! found some info i need...

errmmm. bought something for my parents and sister for xmas.

hahahahaha!

well the only thing i want for christmas is for us to be loving now till forever...

christmas always excites me... dunno why... lol.

this yr cannot play spray cans already... police ban... heard on the radio on friday... =)
fuck u perverted banglas who molest girls on christmas.

gonna slp now ... bye !

merry christmas to y'all !

Thursday, December 21, 2006 . 1:04 AM

alot of things being stuck in my heart... i really feel so sad... these few days i really control myself alot and never lose my temper at all already... why dun u appreciate it... somehow things are really not alright and i don't know what has gone wrong. my heart is really aching. i don't want to hide it anymore. things are not alright. we're not like what we used to be.

its nobody's fault here. maybe i'm just being a fuking idiot again but i seriously feel so sad.

i already gotten use to this new pace of our lives already. i kept drowning myself in my work so that i wouldn't have miss u so much because i'm really trying to stay really positive but its not all this that made me feel so painful, i just couldn't find the reason.

my parents still being wet blankets to all those little ideas i spoke to them and to me they're really being so fucked-up and never wants to listen to what i say. i really want to tell them all my problems and they're really not being helpful at all, instead always making me feel worse, making me felt that its so wrong to let them know.

i find myself so pitiful. i need a listening ear.... friends? i'm too ashamed to face them. imagine having to reject them every time they call me out, suddenly got problems then find them... hais.

i really wanna tell u so much things, so much things that i feel sad about, but whenever i'm with u, i just dun want to risk that happy time together because i'm afraid that it wouldn't exist anymore le...

i'm really happy being with u, spending all the time with u and more glad that till now you dun complain me of being to sticky to you. see you so tired everyday le, morning so early wake up, i really dun want to add anymore problems to your shoulders.

once when i really miss you alot, i just blurted out to my friends that i miss my gf.. at that time i thought i was talking to myself or something but i just said it out. i was thinking too much.



AIYA DUNNO WHAT I'M TALKING LA. FUCK. ALL THESE SHITS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME. TAKE A KNIFE AND STAB ME NOW AND I WOULD NOT FEEL THE PAIN BECAUSE I'VE FELT THE WORST ALREADY.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006 . 11:12 PM

oh gawd! i really love the monsoon... the wonderful rain... its been raining the whole day today and i totally loved it though i had to walk in the rain for some time but this cold weather made me happier!

today stayed back after school to do my work as usual. haha. i'm so freaking hardworking... but i didn't manage to complete everything... fuck who cares! its the last week of school to a BORING month long of holiday...

it was raining heavily so didn't ask baby to post her christmas cards... tot of asking her to post tomorrow... hope she wun be angry that i didnt remind her...

had udon cooked by baby for dinner! usually i try to take pictures of food she cooks for me but this time after trying one sip of the soup, i quicking gobbled everything up as soon as it was ready! lol.. its really nice, really suits my taste buds!

when i finished my food baby is already fast asleep on the sofa le... managed to wake her up and accompanied her to her room so i could watch her sleep... while looking at her snoozing away, had this warmth and happy feeling and i felt so glad that we're together =P really not sweet talking here but this is the best i could describe on how i felt...

waited and waited for her parents to come home so that i can go home and slp... so slpy by then alr.... wanted to call nicky but my butt to heavy to stand up... ok so judy and nicky came home first and i rushed back quickly.

i'm now slowly fufilling doing the things i said. this kinda gave me some sense of accomplishment.. yeah life is really no use talking only....

lastly before i go to bed i wanna say that i really love my baby alot and i hope she wun find me irritating! haha!

good nite.

Sunday, December 17, 2006 . 11:41 PM

FOOD !!!!! YUMMY !!! jus to share some pics =)





=)

Friday, December 15, 2006 . 10:52 AM

today we're ten months together already... i know i made alot of bad decisions and mistakes but in this time being with u, i'm slowly realizing my mistakes..

its been a tiring week and today is the only day i get to slp abit later... i know we can't celebrate this day as u need to attend lesson in the evening but i'm fine with it... its already made special being with u..

time really pass so fast... gosh i better start rushing my homework!

Thursday, December 14, 2006 . 1:47 AM

my life is just revolving around yours.

you're like planet earth... and i wanna be the moon,
just spinning round and round around you, protecting you and dragging stars across the sky for u at night...

50 years down the road, i'll still love u as much.

ya i'm really unhappy with alot of things. but its okay, i can still tolerate.

gosh i suck.

Friday, December 08, 2006 . 9:28 AM

i feel so glad.
weekends are coming...
so i don't have to always miss u til my heartaches.. 难过 是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多 是心理起了作用
你说 苦笑常常陪著你
在一起有点勉强 该不该现在休了我
不想太多 我想一定是我
听错弄错搞错 拜托
我想是你的脑袋有问题
随便说说 其实我早已经猜透
看透不想多说 只是我怕眼泪撑不住

不懂 你的黑色幽默 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 我不想拆穿你
当作 是你开的玩笑 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 败给你的黑色幽默
我的认真败给黑色幽默

Monday, December 04, 2006 . 11:20 PM

i feel i'm ready to try my own things le. i'm not purely dreaming. so what the fuck if i'm studying... if i had not prepared to make sacrifices i would not have the courage to even tell u what i wanna do. why cant my dad fucking understand. why is he being such an asshole when i really wanna start living my life.

this is so unfair. sorry but i'm at my lowest point of my life.

pls pls throw me out of the house i dun mind going up to live with jesus. fuck my parents. first they say ok now they not even giving me the chance to try things out. really la screw them all.

when i wanna try something new my dad would just ask me to stop dreaming and be realistic. FUCK LA. from last time til now its always the same reply. IF HE DUN LET ME TRY HOW THE FUCK HE KNOW THAT I CANNOT DO IT. HE ALWAYS TALK SHIT ALWAYS TALK LOADS OF CRAP TO ME AND THINK THAT HE'S THE FUCKING BEST. FUCK HIM MAN.

people tell me its alright to dream ... but must pursue it... now i not only dream i even plan things out and start putting in my efforts already BUT ALL HE KNOW IS TO FUCKING TALK SHIT TO ME AND SHUT ME AWAY JUST LIKE THAT.

THIS KINDA PARENTS I DUN WAN ALSO GOOD. ONE DAY HOPE THEY JUST SEND ME AWAY AND I GO UP LIVE WITH JESUS BETTER RIGHT. SORRY BUT I BLAME NO ONE BUT THEM. THEY DUN GIVE ME THE CHANCE. AND I HOPE THAT I WUN HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS FAMILY ANYMORE. ITS PURE SHIT LIVING MY LIFE. GIVEN A CHOICE I RATHER BE REBORN AS A DOG THAN BE THEIR SON. FUCK THEM.

nvm no one wanna help me right, i do things myself.

Saturday, December 02, 2006 . 11:33 AM

going to meet baby after her work today... then going to town and tanglin mall to walk around...

i need to look for good locations today... and my mum wants pictures of products and those shops... omg so tedious...

hope my dad will approve... i know that it'll work.

Friday, December 01, 2006 . 12:13 PM

my mum wants me to get a business diploma while studying at nafa... i was thinking of studying part time at bmc... still considering...

since my dad wants do do another business i hope that he will take my idea into serious consideration... ya i will start looking for good locations and stuff...

hope mum and dad give me chance to take my first step...