Friday, April 28, 2006 . 11:33 AM

yea... went to celebrate geri's birthday with zhixin,justin,eileen and marilyn... met to dine at pizza hut and eileen and marilyn left afterwards cuz they not going clubbing.. then we went to play lan !!! at my new workplace which i'll be starting work later today !!! weeeeeee~ and yesh, me and zhixin totally owned justin at dota... =P

after playing lan, geri feeling proud to be 18, went to buy ciggies... they didn't even check... so i guess she look older than 18 lor... =X

try to halt a cab but after like 30 mins also no cab! hence we walked all the way from paradiz centre to PS .... finally zhixin called a cab and we're on our way to ministry of sound.

entrance fee was 20 dollars... and i was surprised and abit sian why it was not crowded. had cranberry vodka and vodka lime for the two free drinks... abit high alr.... went to dance abit and crowd cam in more and more.. geri treated us waterfall shortly... i took like 3 sips... even burnt my straw... became really super high.. went to dance again... til super tired... then had graveyard!! wah that drink kills... heng i nv drunk... still went back dancing... can see everyone damn high le... even went to 2nd lvl mambo room to dance with old ppl... retro disco?? hahas.. it was fun!!!

our last drink was blowjob... i realy like it ... fact i think was the best drink i ever tasted... though dun like the whipped cream, but the combination rawks ! hehe.. okay we still went back to dance... we're like dancing and dancing our lives away.... lols

feeling v tired and geri kept saying she feel like vomitting.. so we headed out, to mac to eat sth before i took cab with justin home... i was abit drunk, but i didn't show it.. lols.. i tot macdonald's coke got vodka inside...

photos next post..

Wednesday, April 26, 2006 . 8:45 AM

i still should be happy she's not totally ignorant of my feelings. =)

i'll keep holding on....

baby, sorrie about stupid things i did yesterday too...

Tuesday, April 25, 2006 . 1:51 PM

yesh... i feel so happy today!! duperly happppiiii...

cuz can accompany baby to school today... using the school's comp right now... hahas... feeling kinda strange to be in a school i abandoned...

okay though i'm bored, i spent my time watch nana anime and the movie, i just feel happy la.... now waiting for her to finish her last lesson before we head off to get her thumbdrive and make salad??

i feel very sleepy.....

zzzzz

Monday, April 24, 2006 . 9:18 AM

i rmb one night while walking to suntec from town with baby, i asked her whether our relationship would last long. then she told me, if i can, she confirm can de... totally melted my heart.

aiya i dun care whether u guys understand anot.

recalling that made my sad morning happier. off to work soon... =S

bye. had a bad morning! bad bad bad...

well i just got home... i feel so freaking useless.

i woke up damn early today, around 6.30am to prepare honey lemon for baby. i redid it twice cuz i wanted to make sure it taste abit sour cuz she likes it.by the third time, i think the taste is okay already so i went to bathe. that's around 7.10. i came out around 7.20, had a cup of milk and rushed down to take cab. then fuck! i no cash to take cab and the nearest atm is at tamp mart...

i feel so fuck so i took bus. the fucking bus came ard 7.45!!!! okay on bus i msged baby... and she told me she gg out soon. on the bus i pray damn hard that she will not leave so early... and morning the whole road jammed like one fuck!!!!! she's meeting her cousin at 8.30am and yea finally i reach her hse area at 8.05am, and she had gone out, board the bus already on her way to meet her cousin. haaaiiiissss.

yes, i had a really bad morning. first time a surprise for her unfufilled. now the poor honey lemon drink is sitting and crying in my fridge.... =(

i miss my baby alot. really really alot. especially when i noe that she's starting school today and maybe can't meet her...

hope that i can fetch her from school today lor.... that's the only thing i'm looking forward to right now.... just to see her, nothing else.

gawd, how can i feel not useless.

Sunday, April 23, 2006 . 1:08 AM

i feel so sad.

i'm already 19 this yr. i dun wanna be a useless fucker when i'm 20 plus. i want a car. i want lots of money. i really wanna be a perfect man. shit i really need to grow tall.

but first.

i wanna get my own transport. not to impress anyone but i just wanna drive. yea even though is my dad's car. i just wanna drive.

i'll do anything to get my license. haaaaaiiissssss. yes i will definitely get it soon. hopefully by this year the latest.

i can't be wasting my life away anymore. if i chiong hard enough i can live comfortably without depending on my parents at ard 30? yea i'll try. after all my dream is just to be financially sound and have my own happy family ! =)

baby's gonna start school already. good for her lo... at least wun be so bored. and can make new friends... cant wait for my school to start!!!! time is passing way to slow...

yes i'm jealous, if i'm not then something is wrong.

Saturday, April 22, 2006 . 10:07 AM

baby's school starting soon....

i noe can never spend as much time with her already....

haiss...

hope that she'll meet me if she got the time....

BABY I LOVE YOU !!!!

Thursday, April 20, 2006 . 11:54 AM

damn ! using my dad's laptop... my laptop went down due to some error kept popping up. gonna reformat it soon...

>_< made baby angry yesterday. i was really hurt too. i'm always being such an idiot... =(

not gonna meet her today.... gonna meet zhixin, justin and geri for kbox! wooohooo~

but the downside is i dun get to see baby.... well i can't be disturbing her the whole time right.... yesh, i'm too super sticky as a bf... but i really love being with her. oh well...

i think that trust is darn important in my relationship...or maybe in anyone's. and trust does not appear immediately, it is being built up. dunno why but somehow i feel insecure. zzzz not gonna write about that.

she and me still have a lllloooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggggggg way to go before i can say our love is forever in this lifetime.

i really really hoped what i dreamt of will not come true. i had too many deja vus to show me dreams can come true. i pray that the fateful one will not. haissss.

its really hard to find someone who loves you as much you loves him or her. i once did, but i didn't cherish... now, i can't say. things are too early. and yesh, i feel insecure still.

bless today! i just wanna have fun with my friends!

-iloveherthatmuchshe'llneverknow-

Wednesday, April 19, 2006 . 3:03 AM

lack of updates lately due to my laziness. was too busy surfing for phones..

hmmmm... surprised my baby with billabong bag she wanted... lols.. i told alot of white lies.. lucky she didn't buy and called asking me whether she should buy it anot... =) of course i said no.. cuz i already bought it for her! ahahas...

baby's making cookies either on thurs or fri!! yummy!

i've really been gaining weight lately.

she may never know i much i love her...

she made me feel love is real again...

she may not know she's the one i'm gonna really cherish...

its hard for me to express the things i want, usually i would just say it straight, but now its kinda tough for me to open my mouth. yea i'll feel unhappy at times, but i'll never be mad at her or anything... i never wanna hurt her intentionally. well sometimes i did something which i didn't even realise it'd hurt her... gosh i'll feel so bad.

i dunno whether i should be happy or sad. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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i just feel damn wierd la. haizzzz.

Friday, April 14, 2006 . 6:20 PM

few more hours and it'll be my 2nd month together with baby... we spent our first month anniversary on the bus to genting! haha..

we're going to the zoo tomorrow with her sister and alson. yea on our first month, her sis and alson is there too! on the bus with us! lols....

well i think that love is wanting to be with that person for the rest of your life... caring and being there for her...

i wanna bethe person she can rely her future on. yesh.. i'm madly in love with her... NOTHING gonna change that! =)

i've made her mad the past few days... well at least she told me what i did wrong... yeahhh i'm gonna remember and not repeat my stupid mistakes again! =x Scorpio are fascinating and have an air or mystery about them. What you see on the surface is only what they want you to see, if they appear as direct and forceful, they are actually vulnerable and sensitive beneath. They take love seriously and are searching for admiration from their partners. Getting a date with Scorpio is easier than forming a long term relationship with them. You will have no problem seducing them, but its a lot harder if you are looking for an extended relationship. They may at times, appear as a loner, it's a deception that guards them from being hurt as they are wounded easily. Once committed to a relationship, they will be faithful mate providing both financial security and dependability. For a date, a day at the beach, a social affair, or something recreational as they enjoy associating with people. Scorpio appreciate being listened to and want to know that they have your complete undivided attention. Scorpio hates to be dominated and to be taken for granted. Scorpio can be extremely jealous and protective of the person they choose to be with for the rest of their lives. They seek someone generous, loving and affectionate, and who can give them a sense of security. In turn, they will provide lots of passion, affection. They always take their partner's feelings into consideration and have a great deal of energy when it comes to passion.

seriously, i really think is kinda true...

Monday, April 10, 2006 . 10:57 PM

went to ming pei's birthday barbeque last night with baby... haha.. the cheese sausage is really yummy! =P we then went off around 12 ? ... sat on a huge stone to chat... and got one black and fat caterpillar landed on my pants from dunno where! lols.. it was damn disgusting! =X

baby and i then quickly walked away... lols.. to 7-11 buy drinks... i disturbed the aunty abit.. i think aunties every good to disturb lei... can talk cock with them. den we went to void deck eat yougart, i slapped one mosquito! ... and finally settled down on one bench before going up to her house around 5plus in the morning. she went to her room and sleep... then i sat and slept on the sofa!!! power hor?! =P

i just feel super happy can spent the whole night with her! deardear! wo hao ai ni !

hmmmx... we went whitesand today to get chips, lemons and 10 oranges... ate 3 and used 1 to make ice blend... watched ice age 2 with her at her house.. the movie is darn good lor! so touching! hahas.. =) i just love stupid disney cartoons! my fav is still lion king!

thats all folks! haha..

when the going gets tough all things are not going your way, smile more, look on the bright side, you'll feel better naturally...

i can't have things my way like i used to in the past. i'm learning to accept more and more stuff, i'm starting to forget a human's perfection and admire the imperfections... i'm slowly realising what's 'respect' in love.

i love her for who she is.....

come to think of it... i'm a big fucker in the past... lucky i realised it early.

Thursday, April 06, 2006 . 1:33 AM

dunno why but i love to plan things... especially planning for my future and all that. hmmm let's see, in the meantime waiting for school to start and work very hard in school and with justin... ard 2010 i'll be in ns, that's like 22 yrs old then go ns....lols! nvm... come out of ns liao ard 24... then at 25 i'll chiiiooonngg my career. by 28 or 29 must save enough to get married... aiya i promise myself to get married before 30 la...

then... if i'm married then must super chiiiionnng my career and by ard 36 i alr chiiioong 10 years liao.... ok then i think should be stable alr.. time to enjoy life and blar blar here and there. still must work la... but definitely not for other people!!!!!

if i turned 40, i'll be ugly alr... turned to uncle liao den i'll start to buy branded stuff... hahaha. to look in trend! shit i really scared if i start balding! =/

i don't look very far in my love life, cuz in love everything is so unpredictable. actually i'm still very afraid of getting hurt... tot i immune alr but i still get jealous quite easily... but can control la... so much better than last time. hmmmmz.. for now i'm super happy with my deardear siying... she totally rawked my world! she changed the way i looked at life and how i think. i feel that she's the one i really wanna settle down with.... =X

baby, when i'm with you, i feel that every big problems or every huge things that come by seemed so small to me. u gave me the strength to carry on and on...

i love u .... i really do...

Wednesday, April 05, 2006 . 9:52 AM

didn't update much cuz i was busy working... yesh i've set a password to my blog, so that people like my parents would not gain access to my private life. wahaha. they actually read my blog u noe! lols.

went to baby's hse after work yesterday. she made orange ice-blend+milk... it was yummy! =D she seemed kinda fierce yesterday, didn't dare to say anything stupid cuz i scared it'll annoy her.

oh man.... i'm getting fat... i've been eating like a camel for the past few days... it's time to diet again! hahas..

yayyy, our 2nd month together is coming very soon. ermm 10 more days!!

meeting baby today after work, have not decide where to go. time passed freaking fast when i'm with baby... i need to find something to stop the time! =X my nonsense. hehs..

baby i love you !!!

i'm so determined to last with her....

Sunday, April 02, 2006 . 9:54 AM

WAHAHAHAHAA. i found a new job the moment i click publish just now. lols. waiter de... $7.50 per hr... confirm better than my freaking job now. starting work at 11am today.. lols..
and it's PART-TIME..

weeeeee~ now we're rocking! i feel so super sad. i cant spend much time with baby anymore. i'm working full-time and her school semester is starting soon. things are made worse when i cant get the same off day with her. i'm gonna tolerate this job for one month... haiis. i wanna see her... aiya just when i thought everything is going good for me, yeah its going good but we just don't spend as much time together.

i'm so afraid that she would leave me.

working at 11.30am later. really fucking no mood la. i can't try to make myself happy anymore. haiiss.. i feel sad... very very sad.

zzzzzzzzzz........................

Saturday, April 01, 2006 . 1:40 AM

when i send baby home just now, i felt time really pass freaking fast.

we went up the lift, while walking to her door, i can't bear to let her go.

oh well...

hmmm starting my new job tomorrow.

nth much happen in my life la.

i've been thinking too much lately. finally a job to keep my mind off those stupid thoughts. i find myself always talking nonsense and contradicting myself in my thoughts.

i don't know much of anything, all i know is how much i love her and i'm trying to make her the happiest gal in the world.

=)

i'm shutting out the truth, just wanna let happiness, smiles and love enfold me.

shit. i can't sleep. gonna iron my clothes later.

baby, lets grow old together... i wanna see those wrinkles! heheh .. =P