Sunday, November 26, 2006 . 12:34 AM

allan what's happening to u... where's all that motivation u had last time for your future? why to u now the future seemed so bleak? did u expected too much? hais.

i'm feeling so lost. this whole thing is really affecting me... every night its o fall for me asleep, i kept asking myself why am i doing this... i stared long and hard in the mirror, gosh do i really look that bad? deep inside i know i really can get everything i want but shit now i don't even try.

the worst thing i even forgotten to go for my important driving test. fuucckkk.

i've thought about it, i'm 19 already, yea... i know what i want for the future, and now i cut all my stupid spending habits already.... i'm slowly improving myself but its so tiring... i gave my every last bit of love til i had none for myself and i feel like a zombie now.

omg
omg
omg

i don't even play cs or warcraft now. its just u, my sch and my routine life.

can't u see that i'm improving. and yes i still chiong for my own wheels. i feel so idiotic.

i'm not sad, i just feel very very lost now. sigh...