Saturday, May 27, 2006 . 5:21 AM

lack of updates cuz i've been really busy lately... work, sleep and accompanying my darling! =P

nowadays i think too much, even now, stressing myself alot. gosh i really feel bad doubting her... can't blame much on a super sensitive person like me. =(

i still have a long way to go, lotsa time to play, but why am i seeing myself getting more and more commited to this relationship even when i feel so insecure. haisss. this troubles me. maybe because i love her too much til i didn't have any left for myself. am i stupid? i was, once and i didn't want to repeat that mistake again. zzzzzzzzzz. =(

wwhherrree iisss daa luurveee ? ? ? >_<

maybe i shouldn't care too much or think too much. if everything is just so fated that way then be it. i don't wanna be unhappy anymore. every good thing comes with a heavy price. for me, its an utter mental torture i've to go through, only to forget part of it while i'm playing game. where's the old me...

i dun wanna meet my friends tmr! the whole day i've been feeling so down. i totally messed my thoughts and sat there shivering behind the counter. who can i talk to... only to myself. i understand myself best and all this while the brave me had been consoling the stupid me.

=x

ok no time for these shits now, else i would breakdown and start drinking again. shitass!

i just need.......... to find my way back to that lovely sweet path again.

slap me from all these!!!! =(