Saturday, May 06, 2006 . 6:06 AM

damn! yeah, i just got home.... at around 5.30am! oh gosh... had a shower and now i'm blogging with a cup of kopi-o ... took a night-rider home to save money.... it's only 3 bucks... so i can keep 7 bucks of that taxi-fare from boss as an extra cash.... not i stingy la, is when i alone don't need spend so much.... scared with deardear the time no money spend...

seriously, i feel very stressed. alot of things had been bothering me lately. i'm afraid that if i pour everything out to baby, she'd get upset. haiis... well, maybe i'll feel alright again next few days... i need a hug now! .... first thing i gonna do when i see baby in the morning is to get my big hug!!

lol i sound like a 12 yr old girl who's having puppy love. gosh! hahaha. ok but i really do need a hug.

my plans for today.... yeah i'm not sleeping, waiting til the sun-rise then i go and change and meet baby... accompanying her to school to hand in her mc and sending her to work.... after that meeting my friends at 12pm at douby ghoat mrt for dota! lols...

i'm gonna be very very very tired tomorrow.... must endure til tomorrow 5am plus before i can have a good sleep.

really really hoped that she'll not have a change of heart. i'm doing my best already, sometimes even a little more than i could go. its the first time i put in so much time and effort to really do and cherish something. yea, its my relationship with her.... really hoped that our love would last this lifetime. though it maybe just a short span of 2months plus, but now, in my heart i know that she's the one for me...

in my life for the first time ever... i'm true to myself, cherishing something that i thought i would never trust again.

=) omg i gonna stay awake!!! argggghhhh....