Friday, May 19, 2006 . 12:13 AM

seeing a person u loved hugging another guy is really a heart-breaking thing.... well thats the past, i tried to forget everything about it but i can't. there's always something that would remind me of that night. i was reminded again today by some stupid tv show.... whenever i think about it i would be very afraid... i would lose every bit of confidence i have and feel very insecure... haiis... i know she's not the type of gal but i can't help feeling that way.... omg... somebody help me!!!!

i try hard to control le... i try not to say stupid things... cuz all i want now is for her to be happy... whatever other things i'll just see to it in the future..

i'm sick now, having a flu and cough... just recovered from slight fever i had yesterday... kept having cold sweats... baby is sick too... just hope that she gets well soon!

meeting baby tomorrow morning... then have to go to work after that at 5.15... zzz... no choice... i don't get money from my parents... wanna learn how to be independent just like baby did... that's one of the things i admire about her...=)

ok gonna get some rest now... good nite and good bye !!!!! =P