Thursday, September 08, 2005 . 11:00 PM

okay. today had mine 3rd jamming session. it was crap i think. we play okok only. not tight enough. my drumming sucks. i felt too hyper active tonight. damn. kept on hitting extra notes. i dun wan this band to fail because of me. i have this feeling i'm always gonna screw up.

drummer equals timing equals fucking stress. not only i have to keep the beats constant, i also have to remeber rolling parts. if anyone screw up is mainly because of me i think. because i think my timing not constant that's why will screw up. i really have no drumming talent. damn it. i feel so fucking shitty because this holidays are darn boring.

my freaking phone failed me. went dead. died in silence. fucking shitass. every bad things are happening to me. damn it. i have so no will to live now. fuck you shitasshole.